Becky Does Her Hair ~ Week 8

[becky]

Like I'm js

[becky]

My plan for this week is to get Shell out. I've spent the past week pretty much alienating Shell from anyone. The girls all already dislike her. I sent Steve the chat log I posted in my last confessional about Shell not trusting her. And I'm pretty sure the boys already don't like her. I need to see that bitch up on the block.

If Shelli wins HoH...then I might honestly be in trouble? But I feel like the I've worked a good enough connection with the boys this week (minus James), that I'd have a pretty good shot at staying if I went up on the block. And if Shelli puts me up against a boy, then I'm pretty sure the girls would have my back.

But I would LOVE to be HoH this week, and put up Shelli and like Steve or James...preferably James. James has entered goat territory, and I don't think anyone would put vote him out over Shell at this point. Bitches like Kathy might get a smart idea and try to vote Steve out to put me in a bad spot.

[becky]

Fuck you shelli poole stop winning HoHs and just drink your fucking wine in the fucking corner where you belong

Ugh

Time to scramble

[becky]

Or maybe not? James told me that he thought he was going up. Even if I go up next to him, I feel like I'll be fine?

[becky]

This fucking "Did Becky leak the BB17 alliance" bullshit drama is the fucking stupidest drama I've ever been a part of? Like, I made it a point to not tell the BB17 alliance to ANYONEEEE because I was like so good with that alliance. That alliance was sacred, that alliance was golden. I was so loyal to it that I fucking told them everythinggggggg about my game.

But when it leaks, who gets the heat for it? Becky. All three of Steve/Liz/Shelli assumed it was me who told, and all three of them STILL DOUBT IT. Liz asked me if I leaked the alliance on the way out, and Shelli just asked me if I leaked the alliance. Like no??? I literally showed her the logs of Kels asking me and shelli still doubted me???

Like, let me clarify that I cannot BLAME THEM for assuming it was me. Kels went up to all three of them claiming she already knew. Who does that leave out? Becky.

But like, girl, SHELL -- when I literally show you chat logs of her asking me, how can you doubt me???

I know I'm playing the victim card, I don't mean to play "oh woe is me" when really I am not innocent in this situation. But like, I made it a point to just have one group who I told everything to after a fiasco in another game where I withheld information from all the groups I was in, which ended up burning me (shout out to James ). So it's just REALLY REALLY frustrating now to see that, although I did that, I STILL get accused of being a rat. Because like, yes, I WAS a rat. But I was STEVE'S ANGELS' RAT. And they turned me away.

Anyway I explained to Shell that I did not sell the group out, and she told me she had been thinking of putting me up before I had explained it to her. So I should be safe at least from the initial noms this week? Let's hope.

[becky]

Well...I dodged the block!

I really want to win this veto comp, because I'd like to (as the crytpo said) secure my safety this round. I think that if Cass or James goes up, I could very easily be the replacement nominee. Which is not good, I do NOT want to end my no nomination streak.

If I win the veto, I will likely use it on Cass. She chose me to play in the comp, so there's a bit of an implied "I'm expecting you to use it on me betch," from Cass there. Plus, it would be nice to royally fuck up Shelli's HoH. Her noms were totally just designed to minimize burning bridges, and I'd like Shelli to burn at least one new bridge this week. The obvious con here is that she may put up kels or kath...and one of them might go home. Which, if Kath leaves that's honestly not bad. But if Kels leaves I will be VERY UPSET because I LOVE HER.

Shrug. We will see.

[becky]

WELP, operation "don't be the replacement" is now go

[becky]

Operation "don't be the replacement" failed

fuck shelli

[becky]

I'm ultimately being pretty calm here. I'm pretty sure I have the votes. Arlie is a guaranteed vote, as is Steve. I imagine James will keep me, and I don't know about Howard.

If the girls want to try to get rid of me then that is on them. But I think I have kels' vote. Kathy I am fully expecting to be hella fucking shady and try to get me out, but honestly I have enough dirt on her that I can hopefully foil any plots she makes. I suspect that she was a vote to keep Liz, and that's a rumor I can push pretty easily to discredit her with Steve.

But yeah, your girl becky has literally nothing notable about her game now. I've never won a comp. And now I've been nominated. Incredibly frustrating.

[becky]

Whenever I really think about how this game is going my thoughts get kinda fragmented so I'm just gonna post some bullet point thoughts

~ Totally NOT surprised by Shell's nom. From her perspective, it makes sense. She wants to target cass, so she needs to put up a replacement that will not get voted out by the boys. I'm lower on the boy's target list. Ergo, put me up.

~ I'm sure all the boys knew (and possibly even suggested) I was going up beforehand, but they didn't want to say anything. Except for Arlie.

~ I've totally been downplaying the apparent strength Arlie and I's relationship is this entire game. He's started talking to me recently and being VERY intimate strategically. Like, talking about how we're both on opposite sides but we have each other's back, how no one knows how close we are. Like, I didn't even know how close we were apparently! But it's good -- if he trusts me, that is a relationship I will have to rely on to get through the coming weeks.

~ WITH ALL THAT SAID, really annoyed with how Shelli has been acting this week. She told me she was thinking of putting me up, then after she did not she told me how she wanted us to be good and work together again. And she really loves me guys! Bull. Fucking. Shit. I obviously mean jack to her because she put me up. She also told me during the initial noms that she would "never put me up without at least talking to me first." This time around though, she only told me I was going up RIGHT BEFORE SHE DID IT. Fuck you girl.

~ The good thing about being nominated? I have an excuse to fucking target her. Casus belli, bitch. I'm gonna go hard for HoH and then nominate her and...someone else. I don't know yet. Probably Steve or Howard...maybe Kathy I don't know yet. It really depends on how this week shakes out. If Kathy tries to campaign against me, lord knows I'm going after her ASAP.

~ The live round should be fun. I could totally see myself leaving depending on who wins HoH. Hopefully not though!