Post by liz on Jul 15, 2016 5:47:21 GMT
goodness there is so much to say.
so i wake up this morning to some aggressive third degree from kelsey. girl is being superrrrr self-righteous which i can't stand. don't act like you didn't have another alliance with becky/nick/naeha by week 2. anyway she was grilling me about a bb17 alliance and an alliance with howard/steve. it was really awful but i faked going back to sleep and then when shelli got up i told her i basically had to tell her, then did. plus steve had already told me that kelsey knew and he admitted to it so there wasn't much else to do. in retrospect i probably could have just admitted it right away to kelsey but i don't think that would have saved me.
at that point, i knew becky was the leak. she already spent SO much energy last round trying to get kathy up and out, it just had to be her. she's leaked so many things to me about kathy/cass/naeha, it just seemed like she would be the one to be leaking things to kelsey. steve and shelli agree, and then becky is telling steve that she thinks shelli and i are leaking. it's kinda awful but at least becky is caught in all of her double dealing. so whatever. i need to start doing damage control on my week. she's like daniele donato from bb13 right before the golden key twist ended. in the middle of everything but blows her position trying to make moves.
i go to howard after i'm nominated and basically i'm super apologetic and up front about what's going on. he said he wasn't sure how he felt because i came to him after i was nominated. i mean, i get it. at least he's being up front with me. i basically told him i had nowhere else to go so he could trust me, and that we need each other to still win comps and help each other out. he seemed unconvinced which sucks, so i just need to keep working on him, especially that he's playing in veto. if he wins i need him to veto me. and he certainly cannot veto steve, but i'll get to that. howard also said something weird in that it didn't matter because we don't have majority, except that we do. if steve and i stay on the block, shelli, arlie, howard, and james are majority. and then he didn't respond after i pointed that out. there's definitely a possibility that they would save steve over me, which sucks. but shelli found out about the guy's alliance/group chat from arlie so if they have more loyalty to steve than me then i get it, i just need to change it.
so things are looking reallyyyy down for me at this point, and i don't know what to do. i debated throwing becky utb to kathy, telling her everything about last week, and using kathy to make kelsey not target me. this week is pretty much about survival lol. but i was scared. i was scared because i'd be giving kathy the power to ruin my game and i may still need becky's vote depending on where this week goes. however, blessed is me because kathy came to me trying to make amends. she asked me explicitly if i tried to get her backdoored last week, so i cracked. i told her everything about last week, but was vague about who was leaking stuff to me. i wanted her to figure it out with me so it would be more genuine. but i told her that when i vetoed james, shelli told me she wasn't putting up kathy (half truth - there was a 10% chance kathy could go up at that point) so i knew she wasn't getting backdoored. because becky tells everyone everything, kathy knew that there was a push for her to go up last week and she knows shelli and i didn't do it. i think that'll actually be really helpful this week, because kathy thinks i had her back last week. i told kathy that we could even repair ESPN if i survive the week, whatever she wanted to hear. she told me it didn't benefit her game to see me go, and that steve or howard leaving is much better for her. i definitely didn't dispel those thoughts. if kathy wins veto and wants to make a move to backdoor howard, then so be it
¯\_(ツ)_/¯
that's my motto for the week. i know it's really cold but i have to do it. i can get emotional in these games and i need to not do that this week. i need to have one and only goal this week, and it's not getting 10th place. anything that hurts anyone else, ¯\_(ツ)_/¯. if i'm up at the end of the week, i'm coming for those 4 votes to stay. if anyone wins veto, i'm making a plea to have it used on me. i'm going to try to get to safety at any possible turn. every week is a new week with a new chance to play a new game. but this week, i just need to survive.
so i wake up this morning to some aggressive third degree from kelsey. girl is being superrrrr self-righteous which i can't stand. don't act like you didn't have another alliance with becky/nick/naeha by week 2. anyway she was grilling me about a bb17 alliance and an alliance with howard/steve. it was really awful but i faked going back to sleep and then when shelli got up i told her i basically had to tell her, then did. plus steve had already told me that kelsey knew and he admitted to it so there wasn't much else to do. in retrospect i probably could have just admitted it right away to kelsey but i don't think that would have saved me.
at that point, i knew becky was the leak. she already spent SO much energy last round trying to get kathy up and out, it just had to be her. she's leaked so many things to me about kathy/cass/naeha, it just seemed like she would be the one to be leaking things to kelsey. steve and shelli agree, and then becky is telling steve that she thinks shelli and i are leaking. it's kinda awful but at least becky is caught in all of her double dealing. so whatever. i need to start doing damage control on my week. she's like daniele donato from bb13 right before the golden key twist ended. in the middle of everything but blows her position trying to make moves.
i go to howard after i'm nominated and basically i'm super apologetic and up front about what's going on. he said he wasn't sure how he felt because i came to him after i was nominated. i mean, i get it. at least he's being up front with me. i basically told him i had nowhere else to go so he could trust me, and that we need each other to still win comps and help each other out. he seemed unconvinced which sucks, so i just need to keep working on him, especially that he's playing in veto. if he wins i need him to veto me. and he certainly cannot veto steve, but i'll get to that. howard also said something weird in that it didn't matter because we don't have majority, except that we do. if steve and i stay on the block, shelli, arlie, howard, and james are majority. and then he didn't respond after i pointed that out. there's definitely a possibility that they would save steve over me, which sucks. but shelli found out about the guy's alliance/group chat from arlie so if they have more loyalty to steve than me then i get it, i just need to change it.
so things are looking reallyyyy down for me at this point, and i don't know what to do. i debated throwing becky utb to kathy, telling her everything about last week, and using kathy to make kelsey not target me. this week is pretty much about survival lol. but i was scared. i was scared because i'd be giving kathy the power to ruin my game and i may still need becky's vote depending on where this week goes. however, blessed is me because kathy came to me trying to make amends. she asked me explicitly if i tried to get her backdoored last week, so i cracked. i told her everything about last week, but was vague about who was leaking stuff to me. i wanted her to figure it out with me so it would be more genuine. but i told her that when i vetoed james, shelli told me she wasn't putting up kathy (half truth - there was a 10% chance kathy could go up at that point) so i knew she wasn't getting backdoored. because becky tells everyone everything, kathy knew that there was a push for her to go up last week and she knows shelli and i didn't do it. i think that'll actually be really helpful this week, because kathy thinks i had her back last week. i told kathy that we could even repair ESPN if i survive the week, whatever she wanted to hear. she told me it didn't benefit her game to see me go, and that steve or howard leaving is much better for her. i definitely didn't dispel those thoughts. if kathy wins veto and wants to make a move to backdoor howard, then so be it
¯\_(ツ)_/¯
that's my motto for the week. i know it's really cold but i have to do it. i can get emotional in these games and i need to not do that this week. i need to have one and only goal this week, and it's not getting 10th place. anything that hurts anyone else, ¯\_(ツ)_/¯. if i'm up at the end of the week, i'm coming for those 4 votes to stay. if anyone wins veto, i'm making a plea to have it used on me. i'm going to try to get to safety at any possible turn. every week is a new week with a new chance to play a new game. but this week, i just need to survive.
