All I Do is Twin

[liz]

I already talked to James because I decided I want him to nominate me. also i just remembered that naeha nominated james, not kathy. so like fuck me. apparently james told shelli that i might go up with nick? I'm worried because nick is like never online, but hopefully we can find a time to do it. i have two chances to save myself this week and i just gotta do it. winning a comp this week is first and foremost, and we'll go from there.

[liz]

this is going to be a complain-y and woe is me DR. beware.

i want to throw up. that battle of the block went so badly. i'm just so upset. i'm definitely gonna stay on the block this week next to nick. i just have this awful feeling. basically i predict that i'm gonna stay on the block with nick, naeha will win veto, she will veto nick, and shelli will go up next to me. i really think all of that is going to happen and either me or shelli will be evicted this week. i have just had terrible vibes all week. AND THERE IS THIS FUCKING FLY IN MY HOUSE THAT KEEPS BUZZING AT THE WINDOW AND IT MAKES ME WANT TO DIE.

i'm so fucking over luck competitions. i know luck is part of the game and the two comps aren't entirely luck but i just feel so unlucky. i guess i could have been more organized clicking around those rooms but i felt like i was doing it pretty methodically. i am just really upset right now and i feel like i'm going to be evicted this week. i just have such a negative feeling and i don't know what to do about it.

this has been a terrible week and i feel like i've been playing a great game. fuck james for winning HOH twice with 2 luck comps, like fucking go home already.

i need to take some time and let my emotions cool down. i'm so heated after that comp because it just went so badly and then who knows what veto will be.

sorry if i seem like a poor sport i just really don't want to get evicted this week.

[liz]

sorry about all that complaining!

i feel better now. i had a good conversation with james and he let me know that he wants to backdoor naeha this week. so still, the worst case scenario is that naeha wins veto and takes down nick, because i could go up next to someone who i really like. but as long as naeha doesn't win, we'll be okay. i have a lot of people telling me that i'm going to stay over Nick, so i feel good about that. but i'm pretty sure the veto will be used this week almost regardless of who wins it. the game is really getting going.

i'm definitely not ready to go home this week. i feel like i am doing well and this week is just a hurdle i have to get over. but i think i have strong connections and i want to get to jury.

i did the veto and i think i did okay? I was practicing on like 13x13 boards lol and that was apparently too much. this board was much smaller! But i felt confident going in. i did get stumped a little on the purple block (because it like loops around the whole thing and then some) but hopefully others will get stuck also? my final time was 2 minutes, 3 seconds, and i just pray that's fast enough. it's definitely beatable if someone just gets it right away, but i'm just praying that if someone else gets it, it's not naeha. i'm reallyyyyyy not ready for my game to be over in the 4th week.

gah i'm so nervous.

[liz]

Sooooooo close but hey I got 2nd so I feel good. And Howard said he'd take me down explicitly, so I just need to wait for that to (hopefully) happen.

Liz Nolan (13:01:26): plus i know james was considering BDing naeha
Liz Nolan (13:01:34): but obviously that cannot happen if she wins veto
Howard Overby (13:01:47): i'm gonna win it, tell james
Howard Overby (13:01:53): look i think nick is tight with nae i can't take him off
Howard Overby (13:01:56): i'll take you off
Howard Overby (13:01:57): then blam nae is put up
Liz Nolan (13:02:00): yeah
Howard Overby (13:02:05): then doubleblam we have nothing to worry about from them

[liz]

Cassandra Shahinfar (20:05:11): I should hope to see people evicting Nick or else i'd be shocked
Liz Nolan (20:05:22): i feel okay against him atm
Cassandra Shahinfar (20:05:55): yeah, its like me against sam lol
Liz Nolan (20:06:12): yeah!

[ika]

Hi

We will make
lighthouses of ourselves
and shine......
Good Luck

[liz]

<3 ika <3

quick recap on my 3 alliances:
steve's angels: liz, shelli, becky, steve
SLASH: steve, liz, arlie, shelli, howard
ESPN: liz, shelli, kelsey, becky

feeling pretty good at this point, but it's a tough act. i obviously can't just be like "omg i had no idea howard would veto me!" tomorrow. no one is going to believe that. obviously everyone in SLASH would understand howard vetoing me, and becky knows about SLASH. so that leaves kathy and kelsey.

with becky, i just told her straight up howard is doing it. i need to make becky think i'm prioritizing steve's angels above all else so she can continue to report on her alliance with nick, naeha, and kelsey. but becky is smart and she knows that howard using POV is going to result in nick and naeha on the block. she said she feels ok with it. she was quiet for a while which made me nervous, but i found out she's playing fall out. ultimately i think it'd be too risky for her to try to blow this up. i'm a tad worried, but not too much. i just don't want to ruin anything before howard uses the veto, but i need to work on maintaining some relationships outside of SLASH.

with kathy and kelsey, i am just going to kinda let it go. since kelsey hasn't told anyone about her alliance with becky, nick, and naeha, there should be no reason she'd be upset about naeha going up. i'm just gonna kinda play dumb and say that i made my plea to howard about how i could help his game and he must have went for it. i'll say whatever basically to make it look like a current decision, even though howard and i have been close for weeks.

i don't want to get too ahead of myself, so after howard posts POV ceremony i'll make a confessional about my thoughts on next week.

[liz]

i just got off AIM in part because i want to go to bed and in part because i saw that naeha and howard were both on and it was TOO MUCH. i could just imagine her begging him not to use it. i didn't even want to come across as questioning him or anything so i just left. i'm sure he'll use it on me, i just hate that he's waiting until morning.

i need to not be so paranoid on the block lol. i mean obviously i should be worried i could leave but i need to not let it show/affect me so much. something i'll definitely work on for future weeks.

[liz]

howard is bae, hello week 5!

[liz]

lmao, why did joshuah dislike the veto ceremony? because i didn't use it on him? super weird.

ummm anyway still so happy that i got vetoed! hopefully people won't try to nom howard and i together but i could see it happening. we need some SLASH HOHs to protect us for the next few rounds.

i have been going back and forth on the decision to vote out naeha this week. like, it could upset some people to boot her over nick. but i think we need to do it. if not, then why the fuck did howard veto me? i probably could have stayed over nick and we wouldn't have drawn any attention to ourselves. to make howard and i a targeted pair, and keep naeha in the game anyway, it wouldn't make much sense.

the tricky thing is that kelsey and becky reallyyyy might not take it very well. like at all. i think i'm gonna have to go for HOH next round depending on how this vote plays out. i don't want to risk not making jury if people decide howard and i need to be split up. and i think taking out naeha improves our chances of winning HOH immensely.

i feel like i set myself up well to play the middle and that's not how this game is panning out. we'll see what happens next week but i think this vote is really going to shake the game.

[liz]

james making a new thread...

[liz]

well that's an anti-climactic end to a crazy ass week. i kinda wanted naeha to go but now it's definitely game on. 1 of the 12 of us isn't making jury (i assume) and it's going to be a hell of a week figuring out who that'll be.

[liz]

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[liz]

fuckkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk i missed a post typing up a big cast assessment. by 1 second too. fuckkkkkkkkk. i'm so mad.