Pillow Talk w/ Naeha

[Naeha]

 

ROUND 1

Hi.  

I figured it was about time for a first confessional. Before we dive into some of my ~important thoughts~ on the game, I figured I would introduce myself. My name is Drew. I'm twenty years old. I currently work for a Nashville based production company that specializes in dance related content. When I say "work" I mean it's an unpaid internship that I like to hype up to make myself sound like I'm being productive this summer. This is the first Big Brother game I've played since I played lil ol' Secret Story last fall. I'm really excited!  

I'm trying to approach this game a little bit differently than I have the past few games I've played. I just recently got second place in a Survivor game, and my feelings towards that loss were so unbelievably strong that I felt it was necessary to do some self reflection and really re-evaluate why I play these. I think the realization that I've become a bit jaded lately makes me want to go into this experience with no concrete intentions other than having a good time. I mean, I obviously TRIED to have a good time in every other game that I played, but I think I started becoming so desperate for a win that it became obsessive and vaguely unhealthy. I'm going into this with a goal of not focusing on any potential placements and embracing this experience for whatever it ends up being, whether that means I'm out first or manage to go deep.  

But enough about Drew, let's talk about NAEHA. 

This is gonna be my first attempt at genuine aliasing. I'm not really straying too far away from my actual identity, mostly because the thought of being TOO elaborate with an alias makes me anxious, but I'm definitely changing things up a bit. Naeha is from New Jersey. I'm gonna say she's twenty four and started her first ~real job~ back in April, but it's one of those cool millennial ~real jobs~ that I know at least one or two people will be lowkey judgmental about when I bring it up in conversations. She works in the social media department of a company that focuses primarily on producing web content. Her dating life is a never-ending disaster. She considers herself an active individual that enjoys hiking. I feel like she's definitely the type of person to eat granola on its own? Oh, and she apparently really loves the bland and blonde characters that plague Big Brother, because for whatever reason I told Kelsey and Shelli that I love their reps. I don't know why I did that. I don't care about IRL Shelli or Kelsey at all.  

Right now, I'm mostly focusing on getting to know everyone better and generally being a positive light in their potentially dark lives. When people talk to me, I TRY to be as engaging as possible. I'm kind of talking to everyone as though they're already my friends? I feel like that's totally going to irritate certain people, but I'm thinking others might find it refreshing. I'm hoping it'll make the introductory phase of the game a little less awkward.

I've spoken absolutely no game with anyone, which I plan on fixing tomorrow probably. I have a really bad habit of being kept out of the strategic loop during the early stages of games, and it usually ends up fine because the early alliances formed around me end up crumbling, but I don't know! I'm kind of hoping to be a bit more of a visible personality during the pre-jury phase of this game. I wanna be a little dominant, which I think is definitely possible as long as I get my ass in gear.  

As far as potential alliances go, I'd really like to align myself with Kelsey and Nick. I like them both a lot. Howard is pretty great too, and the conversation I had with Joshuah was somewhat brief but he managed to leave a really positive impression regardless. 3/4 of these people are currently on the block, which kind of sucks, but I don't really think they'll stay there. I'm hoping Sam's noms end up winning BOTB, mainly because I'd like to see Ramsey go home this week. He's kind of awkward and not the type of person I really see myself connecting with. Plus, he golfs, which reminds me of my dad, and I kind of just hate anyone that does that on sight. It's something worth working on. 

Anyway, I'll hopefully have more to say soon! PEACE.  

[ika]

Good luck sweetie

[Naeha]

I would have rather had Kelsey and Josh win, but WHATEVER. We can make this work. I'd love it if they both stayed, but I'm kind of afraid of what the possible renoms could be if one of them gets taken off the block. If noms stay the same, I'm thinking I'd lean towards saving Kelsey. She's probably my favorite person to talk to right now, but I also have no idea if she's connecting with anyone else.

[Naeha]

Jesus Christ. Some of these people are so difficult to talk to, specifically the two people that somehow managed to win HOH this week. I've had exactly one conversation with Sam since the game started, and he was super short with me when we had it. He's barely logged on since, which is kind of infuriating considering that the two people he nominated for never having a conversation with him are ten times more active than he is. I have a feeling either Kelsey or Josh are definitely going home this week, which is frustrating because I like the both of them. They're capable of at least TRYING to hold a conversation, and the same can't be said for the guy potentially sending one of them home.

Then there's James, who I've been DESPERATELY trying to get signs of a personality out of, but it's all for nothing. The guy just straight up doesn't know how to share details about himself as a way of keeping a conversation going. I've asked him what he likes to do, what kind of food he likes, what kind of music he listens to, and each and every question I have is given a weak response. I just wanna know more about him! He doesn't even have to be honest. He could tell me his favorite band is the Insane Clown Posse and I would pretend that I care. I just need something to go off of, and he's not giving it to me.

On the bright side, I think Nick likes me enough to take the next step in our relationship: an alliance. We were talking last night and he told me what he plans on doing if nominations stay the same. He'd like to vote out Josh since they haven't really gotten the chance to talk. It was kind of the bare minimum when it comes to game talk, but it's the first time anyone's talked ~game~ with me, so you can bet your ass I wanna latch onto that shit. He said he'd like to talk game next time we're both around, and I'm kind of hoping it leads to something official. I'd love something with him and Kelsey. Maybe even Liz? I don't know. I think those three are definitely my favorite people right now. Conversations with them happen pretty naturally, and getting a stable group of four would be pretty beneficial to all of us. Hopefully, they don't already have too much going on for them, because I know I sure as hell don't.

[Naeha]

I'M TRYING.

[Naeha]

Hi  Ramsey Randal! My day was good. I spent most of it emailing people and eating nonstop. I'd say it was really productive. Thank you so much for asking! 

[Clay]

im glad to see you're bonding well with other houseguests

[Naeha]

In more POSITIVE news, I've successfully found my way into an alliance with Nick, Kelsey, and Becky. Liz was originally gonna be in the mix, but when I tried picking her brain and figuring out if she actually liked the people potentially involved, she ended up having a pretty lukewarm response to Nick. We were talking about how we liked pretty much all of the girls in the game and she mentioned that a majority of the boys sucked. I agreed and said that Nick was the only one I've really been able to hold a conversation with, and she seemed shocked by this and then went on to talk about Howard. I mean, don't get me wrong, Howard's nice and all, but why can't Liz read my mind and love all the same people I love?

Looking back, I should have just been more straight forward and been like, "Hey. Nick wants an alliance with us, Kelsey, and Becky. Let's do it." But I kind of feel like I can't do that now? Like, she didn't seem to give a fuck about Nick, and it's not like I can force her to. So, I'm guessing I'll just have to move forward with Becky, Nick, and Kelsey as my "peeps" and then try to maintain a relationship with Liz in hopes it can be beneficial later.

[Naeha]

ALSO WHY IS HE STILL GOING BY RANDAL AND PRETENDING LIKE IT'S TOTALLY NORMAL 

[Naeha]

 

ROUND 2

Successfully avoiding being the first boot? Check. 
Wiggling your way into an alliance? Check.
Winning HOH? Okay, it's a no go for that one, but I came so close. Fucking Howard.


Speaking of Howard, I'm not a huge fan of him putting Cassandra on the block. Or him giving me my key last. Or the fact that Liz likes him so much. I have a lot of irrational disdain built up towards him at the moment. Him nominating Sam, though? Perfection. I haven't talked to Sam in five days, and considering the fact that neither of us seem to be itching to change that, I'd love for him to go this week. I mean, I messaged him yesterday when he was online and ended up getting no response, so it's not like there's a TOTAL lack of effort on my part. 

Apparently, him and James are in an alliance together, which is kind of hilarious to me. What do they even talk about? Their ability to kill conversations on sight? I'm just imagining two people sitting in silence in some random corner of the Big Brother house for a week straight. Kelsey mentioned that Sam told her some plan that he and James had for James to throw BOTB in hopes that Sam could win veto and the two of them send Ramsey home instead. I have absolutely NO idea why he would tell Kelsey this, but whatever. I don't really see their plan working, and even if it did, Ramsey is almost just as hard to talk to as James and Sam. Losing him would hardly be considered a tragedy. 




                                        

[Naeha]

I'm pretty sure I've lost the interest of a good portion of the people I was really hitting it off with. I haven't talked to Libra or Nick in what feels like forever, Kelsey and I stay consistently missing each other online, and I just generally feel like I became the Local Inactive in the span of two days. Everyone keeps saying that they've been just as busy as I've been these past few days, but I don't know. I'm paranoid that me being slightly MIA has pushed me away from my spot in the loop. The alliance chat with me/Becky/Nick/Kelsey has barely moved since its creation, and as much as I'm hoping that the reasoning behind that is because there hasn't been a whole hell of a lot to talk about, a small part of me thinks they might have moved to greener pastures.

[Naeha]

 

ROUND 3

Ahhh, the sweet smell of victory.

I'm pretty shocked I won! I walked away from that competition feeling like I had totally bombed it. Life surprises you sometimes.

I've already made my fair share of mistakes during my reign as HOH. Shocking, I know. I kind of forgot that people want you to ask them for their input when you're HOH. Becky seemed a little pissed that I didn't talk about the noms with her a little bit more, and the way she's approached talking to me about it is making me seem like she's not the only one feeling that way. She seemed surprised that I nominated Arlie over Libra, but the fact of the matter is that Libra seems like she's back in action and I've already formed a much stronger bond with her than I have with Arlie. Don't get me wrong, Arlie seems nice and by no means do I consider him inactive, but him and I really just haven't clicked. I'm willing to deal with the consequences of nominating him next week if he happens to win the next HOH, and I just didn't really feel that this week warranted a lengthy discussion with everyone over who should stay off the block.

Whatever. Not to give a stereotypical "I just won HOH and am totally feeling myself" confessional or anything, but anyone feeling like I jumped the gun will get over it. These are the nominations I feel are currently best for my game while taking the fact that this is currently a shared HOH into consideration. Pairing Ramsey with James and having those be my nominations would have obviously been ideal, but Kathy seemed set on nominating Ramsey and I wasn't about to argue over who should have the privilege of nominating good ol' Randal of all people.

In other news, I'm officially aligned with Howard? And getting closer with Steve? It's a weird turn of events. I didn't care about either of them last week, but I'm kind of digging where things are going. Hopefully, they're not feeling the same way Becky is at the moment. I'd say I have some solid relationships going for me right now. It's unclear how many of them are superficial and how genuine people are being when they say they've got my back, but I'd said my social game isn't TOTALLY terrible, which is always nice.

I guess we'll see where this week takes me. I have a feeling the results of this week will probably be a little underwhelming, but I think it could potentially be a pivotal week for me to solidify the connections I have and really set myself up for the next few weeks. Or completely fuck myself over. Either or, really. Probably the latter if I'm already rubbing people the wrong way with how quickly I posted things, BUT HEY, I'm having fun.

[candiland]

congrats on HoH i luv u

[Naeha]

AHHHHH, sorry for not competing in the veto. Work totally went longer than expected. Shouldn't happen again!

[Naeha]

 

ROUND 4

Ladies and gents, shit has officially gotten real.

So, I'm HOH again. I didn't really approach this comp in any elaborate way, so I was kind of shocked when results were posted. I'm super grateful that lady luck managed to pull through, though. I probably would be on the block right now if I hadn't won. James has it out for me at the moment, which makes sense, but it's not exactly fun to deal with. He's been going around and telling people that he wants to stay in power so he can take either Nick or Liz off the block and put me up as a renom, and that has suddenly motivated me to do everything I can to make sure I send him home this week. I want to stay in power this time around, and I want to make sure his ass is on the block by the time everyone has to vote. I think it's a simple enough task as long as Liz and Nick are able to win the BOTB competition, but I don't have a whole lot of say in that at the moment.

Well, I guess I COULD have had a say in it if I had nominated people like Cass and Shelli, who both openly admit to being terrible at comps, but I don't know. I'm not really into the whole Game of Pawns thing. Plus, Cass and I are technically "aligned" and that would have probably ended in disaster for me. I also think it's worth keeping her around right now. She's rubbing so many people the wrong way, and if she manages to stick around for a little bit longer, I think she's a few peoples' go-to nominee.

I know I mentioned Libra was back in action last week and kind of made it a point to not nominate her, but I've sort of changed my mind in the past few days. Don't get me wrong, I like her a lot, but our conversations are really formulaic at this point. We'll talk about Big Brother, the conversation will die, she'll try to resuscitate it, and I'll play along until one of us has to leave. We just feel very...distant, and I've come to realize that I haven't had a single conversation with her that involves the game at hand. Which is fine, that doesn't make me like her less, but when it comes to moving forward in the game and having to make a decision as HOH, it just made sense for me to nominate her. Libra's a good chat room buddy. She's someone I'd probably interact with in Big Brother communities, but that's not really the platform we're interacting on right now.

Anyway, pray for me, y'all. This week is either gonna go great for me or straight up terrible. Regardless of what happens, I think blood is in the air and this cast is acting like a bunch of sharks. Three weeks of endless small talk will do that to you.