Diary Room: Week Three - Show Me Love

[Steve]

So I'm kinda pushing around the idea that I might get nominated this week. one group is legit named after me and me and howard are getting credit for creating the second alliance, so i'm throwing around the notion that i'm not as confident in the house as someone in my position might be. I talked to Becky about being unsure about noms and worrying, then I talked to Kelsey and Naeha. Naeha because Liz told me of a conversation between them where Naeha pointed out (truthfully) that we never had any deep conversations. She said I would be safe if she won. Let's hope she holds me to that. Kathy on the other hand, I'm not particularly safe with her, and I think this is a good thing. Let me explain.

The three pretty much noms at this point are Ramsey, James and Nick. Now Naeha won't nominate Nick probably because of their alliance, so she could theoretically have an easy week and nom Ramsey and James. That leaves Kathy to nominate Nick. She told me in a chat after winning that she would nominate Nick if Naeha didn't. That leaves one spot next to it. If I could get nominated without it seeming like "hey i'd like to be nominated please" and lose botb. (either Nick not showing up, not finishing it, or me basically throwing it and putting the blame on him, which after not finishing a pov and not doing an hoh, people would believe). even if i didn't take veto. it'd be a landslide to evict him. And I could play victim about being on the block all week. Obviously I'm not HOPING to get nominated, but I think this is the ideal week to where if I were to be nominated, I'd like for it to be now. 

[Steve]

[Steve]

So far this week has been really chill. I spent a few days talking to Naeha, Kelsey, Liz, Becky, and other people about me being worried about the game. I'd say that was a half truth. I know that the game is gonna REALLY start soon, and me joking around with everyone in the house is a weird place to be when the game dissolves into two factions. I'm not UNconfident with how I am in the house right now, and I don't think there's anything in particular i could do to boost where I am, I'm just unsure about it all, which again, is something that will clear up once like- Ramsey and James are gone, and people don't have easy choice for nominations. 

I'm playing the role right now of being on the edge of everyone's radar. I've sort of stopped trying to please everyone, and am starting to settle more into a "let's be condescending to people and see who can take it" phase of my humor. I'm aiming to get thrown into a wildcard pile right now, because people want to keep a wildcard around until they figure out what they can do with it. 

Of the four person alliance I'm in, I'm starting to think that I might not have the same as i've had before, the one with the good personality and the good social game but horrible comp skills. Shelli keeps saying she's been doing bad, and I commend her on her social game, so I might be a step in a different direction then where I've been at before. I wouldn't say I'm the leader, at all. I'd probably throw that on Liz for SA and Howard for SLASH. 

Anyway, blah blah blah, more things about me that only really I care about. I feel a lot of people are laying low because it's early in the game, and therefore they're sort of holding back on having fun with it. I think that's why I've taken it on myself to take slight jabs at people and post random things all over, because you should take it seriously, and try to get to the end of this, of course. But I'm here to have fun while doing it. I'm glad that I'm doing substantially better than I've ever done before with comps (i think i was always in the last three of whatever comp i would do before. except for the rare occasion i would get second in pov the week i'd be sent home), so I'm gonna continue on that and just keep holding on until I finally win something and actually have a bit of power in the house. 

Now granted, if I win HOH. I'm straight up gonna continue to fuck with people. The only way someone can suggest a nomination is if they do it in the group chat. I'll pull a name from a hat to see who goes up. Or maybe just go "the last two people to compliment me get put up". Pre-Jury stage, this outlandish behavior would help me, as long as I'm not turning into a huge asshole, they'll keep me for entertainment reasons and the fact that i just like chatting with them about anything. Post-Jury, I'll have to ease back on that a bit so I can work on jury relationships. I won't get super serious all of the sudden, but I can't run around calling someone Jungle Book if I know I need their vote later on. 

Becky is still great.
Howard is still great. I'm probably second string to Arlie but I'm fine with that for now. 
Shelli and Liz are both great.
Arlie and Kelsey are great.
Nick came back after the third day so basically he's Jesus in my book.
i forgot the rest of them but they're probably great in some way or another.

[Steve]

NO THE WORST THING EVER HAPPENED FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK

[Steve]

James wants to work with me.

James.


JAMES.


Gah, the kid seems nice enough. But he seemingly can't hold a conversation without saying "Hru" or "Nm". He's convinced Naeha and Liz are working together because they both put him up and there's absolutely no other reason they would put him up. 

Sigh.

Okay. So this /alliance/ is Me, Arlie, James and Howard. and this is a little stressful to me.

Not only is this my third alliance, this one is not including anyone from the main alliance. (literally everyone from the side alliance that's NOT in my main alliance). But also, James has stated his target is Liz and Naeha. i'm cool with Naeha going, but Liz throws a wrench into Mine, Arlie, and Howard's plan. Moreso mine because I'm already in two alliances with her. 

I'm hoping he gets put up next week and evicted, so we can just pretend it didn't happen. If I do tell Shelli, Liz and Becky about this, this could come across as shady that i'm literally in three alliances now. If I don't tell them, and James blows up and exposes it, I'm literally fucked.