Becky Does Her Hair ~ Week 7

[becky]

PICTURED: Me making moves in the Big Brother house

[becky]

Andddd the Angels blew me up

Kels knows that the Angels exist, and that I told them about the Crazy Ladies, and she knows that they know about the Femme Fatales

-_-!!!!!!!!

I admitted that the Angels were a thing, but denied leaking the alliances. But those girls (and Steve) have logs and everything that can totally sink me, fuck.

All three of them are awful and I want them gone =) even you Steve!!!

[becky]

Kels has assured me liz and steve are going up, which means somehow I've talked my way out of this unless kels is lying to me

which would be totally fair since I've been lying to her all morning :x

[becky]

What I'm getting this week are two conflicting stories about the events of this morning.

If you ask Kelsey, she pretty much spit balled the BB17 alliance and asked Steve about it. Steve cracked under the pressure. Then, Steve Liz and Shelli coordinated this effort to throw me under the bus. Liz and Shelli both talked major smack about me. They called me a rat, said that I exposed the Crazy Ladies and the Femme Fatales etc. Steve also talked smack about me. Oh wait, he didn't! Kels just lumped him in with liz and shelli. But they all wanted me on the block.

If you ask Steve, Liz, and Shelli, you get...well, you get varying stories. Kels apparently knew about the alliance before she asked ALL of them. This lines up with Kels's story, since Steve cracked under the pressure. And then from there it gets a little...hazy. Steve exposed the alliance of him/liz/shelli/arlie/howard. Liz apparently did not speak to Kels at all, except to confirm the BB17's alliance existence. And Shelli...well....Shelli told me that she assumed I was the one who told Kels. She also claimed that she did not say anything to call me a rat, but I do have an actual log of her throwing my name out:

Shelli Poole
There is one and Becky knows about it. Steve, Liz, Howard, me, Arlie.
11:52 AM
Shelli Poole
But I don't trust Howard or Steve and I almost put Howard up instead of Naeha but that's why I didn't.



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The point here is that I'm really trying to dig down and get to the truth. I've come to a couple conclusions, but I'm missing the overall big picture here.

It's pretty obvious that Kelsey is one, incredibly perceptive and two, really took advantage of the power HoH has this week. I think her success this week really came from cracking Steve. Kels was completely spitballing on the alliance, and got Steve to confirm. And I felt the pressure when she was talking to me. She was trying to get me to confess to leaking the alliances, but I did not crack. And ultimately, I think she might have just been spit balling that with me too.

That said, I think Kels REALLY over exaggerated how much "shit talking" liz/sheli/steve were really doing. I think there is a lot of truth in the excuses that those three gave me. I'm pretty sure Steve is being 100% honest in that he didn't mention my name, and Kels confirmed that. With Liz...I really don't know. I've kind of judged her character recently, and her and I are pretty similar. We are both very social, and we're both very good at spinning a narrative. I think her excuse to me might be narrative spinning. She showed me a half assed log of her chat, which conveniently did not have any of her responses because she was on mobile. Like...i don't think that's how that works but anyway. The logs were definitely meager, but I think parts of them might be missing? For now though, I'm convinced that Liz did not shit talk me as much as Kels claimed.

Shell -- I'm pretty convinced Shell was the major source of the "shit talking" that went on. I saw this in the past week, when Shell pretty freely used the information I gave her regarding the Femme Fatales for practically no reason. Why would she not do that again? Especially when she might dodge the block. I think Shell is the one who told Kels I leaked the alliances, just like she leaked the alliance with Arlie and Howard.

The reason Kels lumped Liz and Steve in? Because Shell is not her target. Her target is Liz, and telling me the truth about who really talked smack is not good justification for her putting Liz and Steve up.

That's my conclusion. That Shelli was the one who talked all this smack, but Kels lumped the three of them together to rile me up and be anti Liz and anti Steve. And it worked.

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Where does that leave me for this week??

Shockingly, I think I am in an okay position. This morning could have marked the end of my game, but I bounced back and am once again out of the lime light. The house now has three new public enemies -- Liz, Shelli, Steve. One of those three will probably go home this week, officially marking the end of the Angels.

I'm acting like I'm drinking Kels's kool aid hardcore, despite me seriously doubting her narrative. But right now, acting like I'm Kels's mindless drone is a pretty good place to me. Meanwhile I'm having serious talks with all the Angels, and letting them know I'm not upset. If those three win HoH, I do not want to be a target.

I've also noticed that Howie, Arlie, and I are all in a very similar position, in that we are all victims of Steve/Liz/Shelli's antics this round. Our alliances were blown up, and that's a really good bonding tool. And I'm kind of capitalizing on that and hoping that I'm turning them against Steve/Liz/Shelli. And who knows, maybe an alliance of us three will be forming soon

just kidding, I'm not making any new alliances for a loooong time.

[becky]

Also I keep on saying "morning" but it was literally 2PM when this all happened I'm just a lazy ingrate who stays up all night

[becky]

NGL, I think I deserve a medal for "best at avoiding potential game meltdown" award. I could have totally been taken down by kels's reign of terror, but I think I've benefited from it about as best as I could.

The Angels have been exposed, yet somehow I am not the main target from the group. The other three have become targets, and are essentially public enemies. I'd like Steve to stay in this game, and I'd like to see Liz and Shelli leave. They are both incredibly self serving and honestly...I ain't about that. They will throw whoever under the bus as soon as they need to.

Throughout this, I have also bonded a lot with Howie and Arlie. I've noticed that Howie definitely talks to me a lot more, and Arlie and I kind of have just strengthened our bond that we've had the whole game. This is good, because those boys could fall into power at any moment, and they probably won't target me. The trajectory of this game has pretty much turned away from the boys, so having a bond with them will be good because they might strike against the other girls.

I think the only flaw is I definitely feel less connected with Cass/Kathy. I'm pretty sure Cass sees right through me. I'm 98% positive she knows I blew up the femme fatales, and she will probably come after me in later weeks. Those two girls could be what sinks me in this game, so I need to find a way to shore up my bonds with them.

I feel like I have an incentive to win HoH for the first time. I want to see Shelli leave the house next week, so I'm gonna try my hardest to win the HoH and get her out.